I'm Doing Something I Never Thought I Would
Following a pull I can’t fully explain...
Opening to Spiritual Communication
I have always seen spiritual gifts as just that. Something you have or something that you don’t.
My mentor, Romy Wyser, has such a clear channel to her spirit guides. Mediums I’ve interviewed on Spirituality for Skeptics have an open line to departed loved ones that’s easy to access.
While I can appreciate the fact that I have undeniably received divine guidance through my life and clearly see it in hindsight, the channel to spirit doesn’t necessarily always feel accessible to me.
And even when it kind of does, like a pull to select relevant oracle cards or when I get an amazing download, I always question if I’m just making meaning from something or if it was coincidental. Most often my default thought is that I’m just making things up.
You can see why I decided to start my show with such skepticism and doubt! I started Spirituality for Skeptics for people like me. Believers with doubt who are looking to formulate their own belief systems. Hearing the stories and teachings from my guests is definitely helping me do just that.
The Role Psychedelics Have Played
I haven’t talked about it much, but working with psychedelics, always with a therapist or guide, has been probably the most impactful part of my spiritual journey.
I used to think that maybe it was just substances that were making me think, see, and believe certain things in those sessions. I even discredited the validity of what I’d receive even though it all felt true and real in the moment.
I’ll never forget when my friend and guide who has sat with me most often during this work said to me, “It’s just like once you’re in it, everything opens up for you, and you’re just channeling.”
It really made me think because I didn’t think that was something I could do. But it was kind of true. I would use language that isn’t typical for me and share thoughts that didn’t feel like mine. Often what would come to me would be in the form of “you” and not “I,” feeling like something else was speaking to me.
The more I read and learn about the science of how psychedelics impact our brains and consciousness, I realized that I’m not just making stuff up but rather that the medicines change our state of awareness and allow the things that inhibit us from tapping into spirit to step aside. (This is a very poor explanation, but I’m keeping it as simple as possible!)
Learning to Receive Without Medicine
These journeys have been so instrumental in my growth, but over and over I’ve received the message that I can communicate with spirit without any type of medicine.
I know that consistent practices of meditation, connecting with my guides, working with cards, automatic writing, etc. are what help develop that connection.
Admittedly, sometimes my brain is too busy to receive anything, but more often I do get downloads when I do the work. Sometimes I do five minute meditations and have to stop before they end because I’ve gotten so many downloads I want to write down before I forget.
Now that the stress of running and selling my last business is becoming more and more distant in the past, my nervous system is in a much more receptive state to allow me to really dive into these practices.
Which is why I not only continue to work closely with my mentor of the last five years, Romy, but I also decided to take a class on channeling to learn more of a process to do it for myself.
The Pull Toward Something New
Two weeks ago, I interviewed one of the most incredible people I’ve had the privilege of speaking with. MaryAnn DiMarco. She’s a renowned psychic medium who is grounded and LEGIT.
I was reading her books beforehand while prepping for our interview, but speaking with her one on one, I just can’t explain it. I was totally drawn into her.
After we stopped recording, she asked if she could channel for me and my producer Glenn, and she was spot on with everything that came through.
I don’t know why but after we got off the call, I went to her website and booked in for an upcoming group series of classes she’s teaching starting April 1. I didn’t even read what was on the page. I just paid because I knew I needed to learn from her.
I can’t explain the pull, but I’m so excited to learn from her in this setting.
My goal is not working as a psychic or anything like that. My goal is deeper trust with myself, my practices, my spiritual communication, and a greater understanding of how it all works because my logical brain needs that.
I NEVER thought I’d be looking to learn this kind of thing in a formal setting, but now that I’m committed, I am so excited to see how it integrates into my journey.
(Side note: MaryAnn’s episode on my show airs April 14 - do not miss this one!)
Seeing the Guidance Clearly
I took my dog Mila to Hawaii for a few weeks in February, and ever since we arrived through to the moment I’m writing this, I’ve just been in a space of overwhelming gratitude for my life.
I see the guidance so clearly in hindsight, and I’m grateful to the past versions of me that acted on it.
I don’t know where these classes are going to lead me, but I’m grateful for having them as part of my next steps.
Is there anything you thought you’d never do that you’re finding yourself thinking about at this moment?
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With clarity and intention,
Nicole
Just this week when you posted your latest episode I had a moment where I wondered when you were going to develop your own abilities. This surely answers that. Can’t wait to see what unfolds for you!